Ups and Downs

I'll do the ups first.  I weighed myself again this morning, and I was 253.6!  I haven't weighed this little in a very long time!!  I'm excited, but I'm also very nervous for this weekend.  We're traveling to Corning, then I'm going to Mary's baby shower on Saturday, and there's going to be a lot of unhealthy food there.  I'm thinking about buying some hummus and veggies and bringing my own stuff.  Also for while we're at Louie's parents'.  At least that way I'll have a bit more control over what I eat.  I can bring some oatmeal for breakfasts, and the hummus/veggies for lunch, and then eat smaller portions of whatever for dinner.  And really it's only Saturday and half of Sunday that I need to worry about.  

So that was the ups.  Now for the downs. Louie sent me an article stating that IBM has started massive layoffs.  It's hit India and Europe today, expected to hit the US on either the 19th or 26th.  I am terrified this time!  Louie has gotten lucky through so many layoffs, and it's kind of feeling like its unlikely he'll get lucky again.  I hope to God he does because of our insurance for Lily's formula, and the possibility of moving....that thought makes me physically sick!  I love this area, love the daycare and the people we've met, our house....the fact that Davy and Tracy are moving here this summer...I would be so upset to have to leave!  And worrying about finding a new job, and how our daily dynamic would change....I hate to even think about all of that!  But we do need to start figuring out a plan B, even if Louie does survive these layoffs because the writing is on the wall...it's a matter of time.  Louie said there's other jobs in this area, but I also know he wants to find something he'll enjoy, and that's the tougher part.  

Between the whole formula ordeal with Lily, and Colby being sick, and now this...I feel like I am completely stressed out and anxious!!