40 pounds gone (not official yet)

I weighed myself this morning and was 227.6. That makes 40.4 pounds gone!  My official weigh in isn't until tomorrow so it doesn't count yet.  But this also means I need to be really good at the neighborhood BBQ today!  I want that 40 pound mark soo badly!!

I know it is completely ridiculous of me to think this, but I'm considering doing one of the "It Works" body wraps on my arms, stomach, butt, and thighs before the beach.  Supposedly those shrink down fat and tighten loose skin.  Also can help with the appearance of cellulite. Since those are my worst areas, I'm considering it just for the beach trip.  I have no idea how much it would cost, or if it would even work.  I'd hate to spend the money for nothing.  But if it did work, maybe it'd help me feel more confident about myself while down there.

Struggling

My absence in writing these blog posts probably isn't helping matters.  I've still had consistent losses but it's getting easier and easier for me to slip up, or give in too often.  When I weighed in on Tuesday, I was only .6 pounds away from 40 pounds lost.  Then I slipped up and wasn't careful and now I'm desperately battling to get back there, and hopefully hit that 40 pound mark!  I'm still exercising pretty consistently, 5-6 days a week.  I've started doing the Leslie Sansone videos again, but watching different ones on YouTube.  Those still make me sweat!  And I can use those towards my 18 mile goal this month.

I've taken my measurements too and noticed more inches gone!  Sure wish I'd see some improvements in my arms!

I'm down to a 1200 calorie daily limit.  I'm finding it harder to stay within that.  Even when I exercise, I end up eating most of those calories.  I need to regain control there!

New Decade!

Today was weigh-in day - 229.8!  I'm in a new decade of numbers, and only 1.8 pounds away from 40 pounds lost!  So close!  I'm hoping to get there by next week but also recognize that it may take 2 weeks.  I'm curious to see if I've lost more inches.  I tried on a bunch of clothes in my closet.  So far everything got except 1 pair of shorts .  I could get that pair on and buttoned/zipped but it gave me horrible muffin top!  One of the pairs of capris is also slightly tighter than it should be, but isn't too bad.  I just found more shirts and another pair of shorts to try in too!  Hoping those fit too. That would get me all set for summer.

Renewed motivation!

Still hanging out around 230.8!  Wish I could get down that last pound to be in the 220's again!  Still have this whole weekend and Monday before weigh-in day, so maybe I can still get there!  If not this week, then maybe next.

I tried on my old clothes today.  Some were from a couple years ago, and some were from before Colby was born.  Most of them fit me!!  Even an old pair of capris that were my favorite and haven't fit in years!  There was a pair of shorts that buttoned and zipped but gave me horrible muffin top.  I also decided to try on the 2 size 16 dresses that are hanging in my closet, the ones I wore on our honeymoon cruise.  They both went on!!  They were a little tighter than I would have liked but they still went on!!  That is huge because before they wouldn't even go over my shoulders!  I wouldn't be too comfortable wearing them right now, at least not without spanx, but another 20 pounds or so, and a few more inches and they would look pretty good!

I think maybe a few more shirts, and I should be good with clothes this summer!  I have about 8 pairs of capris and shorts that will work for me now, and about 6 or so shirts.  If I could get them up to 10, I'd be happy!

Dropping calories again?

So yesterday I only ate a net of just over 1000 calories.  This morning I had a good drop on the scale again.  So now I'm wondering if I've lost enough weight that I need to reduce my calories again!  I hesitate to do that because I've been hungry a lot already!  But I know it makes sense...reducing calories as I reduce weight.  Ugh!!!  I guess that also means I'll have to exercise even more to buy back some calories.  So I either sacrifice food or time.  And I still have 70 more pounds to lose!  Ugh!!!!

Ok so...I'm going to have to bump up the exercise.  I think I can do that.  If I do my 30 minutes at lunch, then find another 15-20 somewhere else in the day, that might help. I don't have to do it all in one shot.  

God help me if I have another plateau!!

Seem to be stuck...

The weight loss has slowed down a lot again.  Last week I was down only .8, week before only .2.  So far this week I've stayed exactly the same as my weigh-in.  I know I've been extra hungry this week due to my period!  But I'm also feeling like I need to switch things up again.  Louie and I are still going for walks 3 times a week at lunch, and I'm still doing the strength training 3 times a week, but I'm wondering if I need to do something different or something more.  I've been thinking about trying kickboxing or Zumba, and I was also thinking about picking up my walking DVD again.  Maybe I've lost enough weight now that I need to adjust my calories.  Maybe I need to eat more fruits and veggies.  Not sure what I need to do, but I'm stalling out.  I'm so close to 40 pounds lost, and I want to get there!  

Ups and downs

The last week has been a lot of ups and downs, not just with the scale, but emotionally as well.  

This morning I was 232.2.  But when I just weighed myself now, I was up a bit, so I'm sure I won't see that number on the scale for weigh-in day tomorrow.  I'm just hoping I won't be higher than 233, which was last week's number!  I'm disappointed with myself for letting my emotions take over and not eating the best today.    But it is what it is, and I'll move forward tomorrow.

It's been a really hard week.  We went to Corning this weekend only to get a flat tire.  They couldn't plug it, so they suggested either 2 new or 4 new tires.  Since our tires were crap anyway, we got the 4.  We'd planned to get new tired bit not right now.  We're still trying to recover financially!  So that threw a wrench in the works.  Then yesterday I found out that one of the babies in Lily's room at daycare was diagnosed with cancer.  She's 5 months old.  Just hit really close to home, and I've been an emotional wreck since last night.  Then today we get a notice from our insurance that they denies the original claim from Coram for Lily's formula!  So I have no idea what that means now...are we going to get a bill for the 2 shipments we've received so far?  Can we still order more?!  Why the fuck was it denied in the first place?!?  I'm waiting for a call back from the care coordinator nurse who worked on it originally.

Plus my car needs to be fixed...no idea what's wrong with it or how much that will cost!

I am just so tired, and emotional!  But, I need to reign it in, and get myself back into laser focus!