Motivation

Confession time: I am a daily weigher.  I know I should only weigh myself once a week, but I can't help myself from checking progress on the scale!  

So this morning I did my usual check, and it said 259.8!!!  The 250's!!!   I was in shock and disbelief so I weighed myself again...260 on the nose.  Damnit!  So I weighed myself again and said I'd take whatever that number was...260.  ::sigh::   But at least I saw it flicker into the 250's so I know I'm close, and that is motivating!

I was trying to think of things that will help keep me motivated - successes, milestones, goals, events coming up that I want to lose weight for.

1.  My main motivation is my kids!  I want to be a good role model for them so that they never have to face what I am going through.  I also don't want them to ever feel embarrassed by me or disappointed in me.

2.  I want to be able to walk into a non-plus size store and shop off the rack!  

3.  My manager from the UK is coming to NY in April.  I've never met him, and I'm embarrassed to meet him how I look right now!  I'd like to be at least 30 pounds lighter by then.  That's 12 weeks away, so about 2 1/2 pounds a week I would need to lose.

4.  I want to be able to be more active without feeling awful!  When it was warmer and we'd take my son outside to play baseball, I was always the one taking the pictures instead of running and having fun with him.  I want that to change.

5.  I want to stop being embarrassed to show pictures of me!

6.  I want to avoid the health problems that run in my family - diabetes, cancer, fibromyalgia, etc.

7.  I want to feel good about myself so I can feel more confident with my husband.  I know he's seen me at my heaviest and loves me and finds me attractive, but I think feeling better about myself with help me feel more attractive to him.  

8.  I want to be able to have fun with my kids!  As I am right now, I will most likely not go on a ride at an amusement park with my kids.  I'd be afraid I wouldn't fit in the seat, so I won't even try, hoping to avoid that embarrassment!  Again, I'm always on the sidelines or behind the camera.

I'm trying to break down my weight loss into smaller goals.  

Goal #1:  Get below 250

Goal #2:  Get below 225

Goal #3:  Get below 200

Goal #4:  Get below 180

Goal #5:  Get below 170

Goal #6:  Get below 160

Ultimate Goal:  150-155

I started at 268, and today I was 260.  So 8 pounds of my 113 pound goal - I've lost 7% of what I want to lose!